The point is, once you surrender, even if you don’t want something but you really need it, he knows that and he gives that to you. If you need something, and your heart doesn’t want it, still he’ll give it. That is Baba.
Number two, at the same time if you want something only 50/50, not with a 100% open heart, like feeling, “Well, I want to see Mother Divine, it’s okay whether Mother Divine accepts me or not.” That’s not fair. You have to come with a determined mind, determined heart, that you want to see it, do or die. You need to fall in love with the Divine––really fall in love. Your soul has to really badly want to connect to it. That’s a kind of soul aching. You know soul aching? You want to communicate. You need to learn some channels. Such type of strong feeling you need to create. Not create; you need to raise them up. You understand?
For example, when you see an attractive girl, any special person, you can’t help it, you want to know their name and phone number. Then all the time that person is coming in your dreams. You can’t help it. Like that, you need to make a 100% commitment with the Divine that you’ll be there. Once your soul is really strongly committed, it’s done. Then you can leave it alone. It will happen. Absolutely, it will happen. You cannot escape it. God cannot escape from you.
Many people think, “Swami, I meditated for 30 years. I did some healings. I got some channels but I didn’t have any real experiences. Still I’m doing it in my life. I believe in God, I know God, I trust Him but I just don’t know.” It means you don’t have the right angle, right guidance, right way, right formula to reach Him. Do you understand? If you want to reach to some place crossing the desert, if you don’t have the perfect directions, forever and ever you are in the desert. If you don’t have the perfect guidelines, for ten years, or 1,000 years, or even 10,000 years, you’ll be forever in the desert. You need a perfect map. You need to know what you’re doing and somebody really needs to guide you until you reach your destiny. if there is no guidance, you’re lost. that is the major problem happening right now in spirituality.